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“Ask Away”

June 4, 2022
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Lord, I need you. Can you hear me? I am so excited! I am done! I am finally finished. I am ready to start my life! But I am on my own. I am unsure what to do next. What if I can’t find a job? What if I can’t pay my rent? What if I am lonely? Who am I going to become? What do I do?

It’s okay my child. I’ve got this. You can let this apprehension go.

Lord, I need you. Can you hear me? I am scared. I am alone. I have a kid and no one to help. No family, no close friends. This tiny baby is looking at me, wanting me to have answers and plans. I have none. I don’t know what I am doing. I have no clue how to be a mom. What do I do?

It’s okay my child. I’ve got this. You can let this fear go.

Lord, I need you. Can you hear me? I am angry. I am broken. The job I loved is gone. How can they let me go after all I have done? Just because I had to be gone so much. But I was taking care of my kid! This isn’t fair. What will I do now? I have worked almost my whole life. It is all I know how to be. How do I define myself without a job? Is my husband going to think I am not useful? Will my neighbors call me lazy? How do I fix this? What do I do?

It’s okay my child. I’ve got this. You can let this anger go.

Lord, I need you. Can you hear me? I am a horrible mother. The school called again. They can’t handle my kid. In-school suspension for a first grader. They won’t listen to me when I tell them his needs. Our lives are nothing but hospitals and school meetings. I have lost track of who I am. I rarely talk to you. What do I do with this? How do I make them understand?

It’s okay my child. I’ve got this. You can let this anxiety go.

Lord, I need you. Can you hear me? I am overwhelmed. I am responsible for his entire education. What was I thinking? I am not a homeschool mom! I have no clue what I am doing! What if I teach him the wrong things? What if he fails because of me? I am not a teacher. I can’t do this. Where do I even start?

It’s okay my child. I’ve got this. You can let this insecurity go.

Lord, I need you. Can you hear me? I am ready. I am not sure what comes next. I have so many questions. So many things have changed. You are now in my heart. Will I miss the old me? Will I keep my promise? Will I serve you well? I have never liked change, you know. What do I do now? Is it time to begin?

It’s okay my child. I’ve got this. You can let your old life go.

Lord, I need you. Can you hear me? I am so excited! He is done! He is finally finished! He is ready to start his life! I wonder what he will do next. What if he can’t find a job? What if he can’t pay his rent? What if he is lonely? Who will he become? Who am I without him?

It’s okay my child. I’ve got this. You can let this apprehension go.

Lord, I need you. Can you hear me? I am scared. I am alone. I don’t know how to live without my love. I miss him. No family, no close friends. My son reaches out to me, wanting me to have arrangements and plans. I have none. I don’t know what I am doing. I have no clue how to do this alone. How will I go on?

It’s okay my child. I’ve got this. You can let this fear go.

Lord, I need you. Can you hear me? I am angry. I am broken. The child I loved is gone. How can you take him after all I have done? This isn’t fair. What will I do now? I have been a mom almost my whole life. It is all I know how to be. How do I define myself without a child? How do I fix this? What do I do?

It’s okay my child. I’ve got this. You can let this anger go.

Lord, I need you. Can you hear me? I am a horrible grandmother. The school called again. They can’t handle my grandkid. In school suspension for a first grader. They won’t listen to me when I tell them his needs. Our lives are nothing but hospitals and school meetings. I have lost track of who I am. I rarely talk to you. What do I do with this? How do I make them understand?

It’s okay my child. I’ve got this. You can let this anxiety go.

Lord, I need you. Can you hear me? I am overwhelmed. I am responsible for all of their education. What was I thinking? I am not a classroom teacher! I have no clue what I am doing! What if I teach them the wrong things? What if they fail because of me? I am not a teacher. I can’t do this. Where do I even start?

It’s okay my child. I’ve got this. You can let this insecurity go.

Lord, I need you. Can you hear me? I am ready. I am not sure what comes next. I have so many questions. So many things have changed. Will they miss me? Did I keep my promise? Did I serve you well? I have never liked change, you know. What do I do now? Is it time for the end?

It’s okay my child. I’ve got this. You can let this life go.

Shannon Leach is a slice-of-life encouragement writer and the owner of A Repurposed Heart and ARH Inspirations. Her authentic stories and books about leadership, life, and loving people focus on encouraging others and reminding them they are not alone. Her work can also be found in Guideposts and multiple Chicken Soup for the Soul books. She also holds a bachelor’s degree in Social Work and is the co-founder of the nonprofit The Fostered Gift.
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